A raging storm

There is a raging thunderstorm on the go right now and its ironic that is symbolises how I feel at this moment.

I feel I have a thunderstorm within. I feel I need a break from myself..know what I mean?

First there is the break up of the best friendship I have ever had in my life.

Then - finding my biological brother (subject of a post of its own - coming soon!)

I never truly feel happy?? Not in my job nor in my marriage.

I look at other couples and find myself feeling envious of the relationship they had.

J and I had that, very long ago. We lost it somewhere along the line and I don't know where to look to find it again.

Wordless Wednesday

Lol he wouldnt stand still so did my best here!!

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To be a working mom..

I had to work late tonight...and on my way home at around 7.30pm I started thinking about how hard it is to be a working mom in this country.

I read posts / articles from other moms in other countries and it really seems that SA is leagues behind the rest of the world as far as caring for the mothers of our countries future.

One good example is that of flexi time hours. There are a few forward thinking companies (I think those with ties overseas) that allow mothers to work from home. In most cases most of us could, I could most definitely. It is however very difficult to change people mind sets that work can only be done from an office.

Then there is the whole breastfeeding thing. I had tremendous problems when I went back to work as I wanted to express milk for my baby, and although the Code of Good Practice states that a working mother should have two ADDITIONAL half hour breaks to express milk for their baby..the problem with this is yes, its great in theory but its NOT law, hence companies need not comply. I am, however, still persevering and using my lunch 1/2 hour to express milk for my baby and then express again at home.

Time off is also an issue for most of us. Some lucky enough have really understanding bosses when you call in frazzled with a sick child at home. Others..not so much.

If I knew where to start I would start a movement that puts the Code of Good Practise into the law books as well as having the Labour act revised to be better suited to working moms.

Imagine!

Here we go...

I've wanted to get this blog up and going for a while now, but recent events in my life have been the final push. My life is pretty stormy at the best of times..but the last two weeks have been unreal..even to me!

I lost a friend. No, no one died..a friendship died. A friendship that I had thought was so strong, whose foundations were so solid that we would be "together forever".

I am still trying to figure out how it could all have gone so wrong...from us being happier in each others company then anyone elses to us not being able to attend social functions together.

I have gone over and over what transpired in my head and I don't understand. Maybe I'm not meant to.

What I do know is she will always be special to me and although I think our friendship may be over for good, the good times we shared will be indelibly etched in my mind.

I love spring!!

Yup - more flowers!! lol I just love photographing flowers/tree's etc. I find them to be quite forgiving and its great to play with different angles and lighting and not having to worry about the subject moving :)

Flowers, flowers, flowers!

Now that Spring has Sprung and we have had our first rains the blossoms are coming up everywhere! I took a walk round our complex and it has come alive the last two weeks!

I've had great fun with my camera - these are the first of my favourites!