So now there's someone else.....

Thats the reason J is using to justify me wanting to leave him to his family. TO HIS FAMILY.
He is telling them all that he has NO idea why I want to leave him, that the only reason he can think of is that I am in love with someone else.

So now I'm the skank.

Wednesday morning J sends an email to his brother giving him the news.
His brother replied that he was in tears, couldn't stay at work because he was so upset with the news.
J then says that he too, is upset and can't understand why I am doing this.

Have I been dreaming the last 10 years???????
has this man heard ANYTHING I have said over the last couple of years???

I am upset with J, I ask him how can he tell his brother that he doesnt know? So he says because he doesnt? *rolls eyes*

J then sends and email to the whole family asking me to explain why I am leaving him so he doesn't have to lie, and if it is someone else then I must just tell them.

FFS!!

If it hadn't been for his brothers extreme reaction my reply would have been something along the lines of this:
I am leaving your brother because he could not be bothered to get his drivers license, and when I ask him about it he says "I'm hoping you'll leave me if I don't"
I am leaving your brother because despite me having a protection order in place (which I should never have had to get in the first place) he still thinks its ok to hit me in front of your neice, who tries to fight him off and begs me to have YOUR BROTHER/HER FATHER arrested.
I am leaving your brother because I WILL NOT have Saige endure the same trauma that Lem has.
I am leaving your brother because he thinks its "ok" to play his Playstation all day, every day leaving me alone anyway to raise the children and do everything else.
And if any of you still think its OK to stay with your brother then you are just as fucked as he is!

If I had half the balls most people think I did then I would send that. Maybe I should just. Fuck it!

But for now I need my energy for tomorrow afternoon when I see his sister who just arrived back in the country yesterday. She now thinks I'm an adulterer. Joy. I'm now the bitch thats leaving her brother for another man!
She forgets she has a protection order against him too!

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So...it's done.

I sent the draft agreement yesterday afternoon...after probably staring at it the whole day, not quite having the guts to press *send*.

Just after 4pm I did it.
Then the nerves started.....I was feeling so many things, fear, nervousness, relief?

I get home..he didn't mention anything....other then that he had been in meetings all afternoon. So obviously he didnt get it.

Today I felt literally ill the whole day.
This evening he again acts like nothing is up?
So I come out with it, ask him if he got the agreement...and he did.
I'm not going to waffle on too much, but he did get it yesterday - but thought we would speak about it last night but I never mentioned it.
How odd?

He said today that he knows I am about 95% sure this is what I want, and if I tell him I want him to sign it he will???

So I did.

Its that time....

the initial papers are ready to be sent.

He has NO clue whats coming. None. He thinks everything is just fine. And that I have changed my mind.

The longer I leave it the more I think.....the more my "soft" side starts creeping back.

I need to do this.

And I need to do it now.

xxxxxx