Happy First birthday Saige!

So it was Saige's first birthday yesterday.

It was slightly marred by the fact that I have been ill with Strep throat for the last 3 days..but tried my best none the less.

I can't believe the last year has gone so fast. I also can't imagine my life without this little ray of sunshine! I never thought it was possible to love another child like I loved my first but boy was I wrong!

My heart just swells with love for her..and now that she is walking..lol she's the cutest thing! And she has the most infectious laugh.

She's also a real mischievous little imp :) She'll know she's doing something naught and sneaks a glance at you to see if you are watching then gets back to it. Her favorite is switching Dads PS3 on and off and playing with my washing machine dials. lol Luckily she hasn't figured the oven out yet :)

Happy birthday for yesterday my angel!

Losing myself begins..

hheehhehe

I rejoined Sure Slim yesterday.

I was at the dentist yesterday morning...lol..and while lying there having my tooth drilled I thought about my blog and about the fact I blogged ages ago about losing weight but as of yesterday had done jack shit about it.

I knew I would be driving past a Sure Slimon the way home - so I stopped in..numb mouth and all :)

I was there about one and a half hours - the lady was great. She went through the entire program with me again to refresh my memory and worked out what my goal weight is.

Funny enough I am at the same weight now that I was when I joined Sure Slim two years ago.
The program really really does work..provided you stick to it.I was a complete idiot to have stopped it when I did...but thats my will power for you.

So - I went and bought all my goodies..and then weighed and pre packed everything so I dont really have any excuses. I remember last time I lost 2kg's per week..so...if I go by that I should be at goal weight within 3 months :)

I am giving myself till my birthday - which is on June 29 :)

So - guys...wish me luck :)

A quick moan...

Before I jump into bed with Edward (Twilight)

Seriously though I am totally pissed off.

I spend no money on myself at all. None. J at least once a month buys a Playstation game for a couple of hundred rands...or like on Sunday bought a new tennis racket as his broke - purely from his own doing.

I was emailed the PDF book of Stephenie Meyers Twilight series. I have only recently started reading again.

I love it. I am almost finished book one and will eagerly move onto the next 3 books in the series.

But..I felt guilty having the PDF's that I didnt pay for..so I ordered myself the books from Kalahari. Its only R400 for the 4 books??

I've been made to cancel the order as "it isn't necessary to pay for books when you have them already" and I'm wasting money. Fark I am so annoyed. I stress about money every goddam day. I do the shopping and I pay all the bills. I know whats going on in my finances.

So what I have them on PDF? Its not the same as climbing into bed with a book you know??

And yes..maybe it was an irrational impulse buy...but so what????
I've flippin allowed him to buy countless white elephants that are cluttering up my bladdy house!!!!!

Flip the more I think about it the angrier I get.

Night night..I think a few pages of Twilight will cheer me up

My little walker

Here are a few pics of Saige..and she's walking! :) :)

The pics arent the best as I have to lift her up..steady her and then run , turn, focus and snap...lol.

Man I am so loving her right now :) :) We make such a total game out of it and I think she loves it because I do..know what I mean?

Just today she started getting up from sitting..before she was using something to lift herself up.

BUT..we have a new danger...my computer table? It has an extended bit on the end..she grabs that and lifts her legs up and swings *shock* I have a tiled floor! She looses her grip..ai..I dont even want to think about it. I am going to have to dismantle this table me thinks..as we have a little dare devil on our hands.

She is walking!!

My baby is walking!!! Ok a few steps are followed by a thump down onto her bottom..lol..but she is walking!!

I am so enjoying this stage!! She gets so excited when she starts off that she hits a speed wobble and "boemp" lol down she goes!! Aww man I could just eat her up!

I do have video..but I can't find my firewire card so I can download and then upload for you guys :)

I can not believe that this time a year ago I was still pregnant..time has gone so fast!!

So its almost time to celebrate my angel Saige's 1st birthday :) :)

I've wanted to bake her something really special!! In all honesty I can not afford to give her the party I really want to..but she will have a cake !!

I found this one that I would like to try..I can't wait :)

BUT - due to my previous disaster with a two layer cake I am only going to do the bottom layer.

How do you know?

How do you know that the path you have been travelling on for so long is now at a dead end?

How do you know that you are preventing yourself from being happy because you feel obligated to others?

How do you know when its time to say good bye to the past and hello to the future?

How do you know when its time to follow your head and not your heart?

How do you know if you are staying with someone for the right reasons?

How do you know that staying in a relationship is whats best for you?

How do you know if it is the other person causing all the sh1t and
How do you know its not really you?

HTF do you know????