Friday, October 28, 2011

I am woman, hear me roar!

I finally stood up to J yesterday and I’m still like “wtf?”


Last weekend was his weekend, but my dad wanted to take the girls to the Smurfs on Sunday – So I called on Monday to ask what his plans were so I would know what time to book the tickets.

I get told he is going away and is only getting back on Saturday – but will confirm by Wednesday if he is fetching the girls on Saturday OR Sunday

(Like he doesn’t have enough weekends to go away!)

So I say “can’t you take them next weekend for the whole weekend then?” He tells me no, its Month end he has stuff to do.

Anyway – weekend comes and goes – no phone calls no Jason.

He calls me last night, says “I have nothing on tomorrow night can I pick the girls up from school and drop them off on Saturday”

I said no, that he said he wasn’t taking the girls this weekend so I made plans for us – so then he says I can pick them up early then.

I still said no! I won’t allow him to treat the girls like they are “hobbies” that he does when he has nothing else to do!

I told him he either takes them for a full weekend when he is meant too or he doesn’t take them at all.

So he asked “what must I do if my friends have their birthday parties, I can’t ask them to move their birthday’s”

so I said well in that case Jase you made your choice and it wasn’t the girls!

I mean ffs I can’t pick and choose when I have the girls?

He is living the flippen high life, acting like a teenager with his jolling and the girls must just “slot in” when he has nothing on?

No ways. Not on my watch. I would rather he never see the girls then see them like that!

As it is Lem doesn’t want to go there anyway anymore because of how he has been threatening her – she is terrified he pitches up there today – but I’ve informed the school (again) not to let him fetch them unless I say so.

Then of course I had to listen to him go on about how he is a better father in one day then I am a mother in a whole month, how I do nothing for the girls other then “routine” stuff and how he has always said he will take the girls full time (please he wouldn’t last a week!)

My girls are NOT a hobby and I wont allow him to treat them like that. He can take me to court if he wants. I'll even drive him there myself!

Friday, October 21, 2011

Let it go.....

I've been struggling with a few personal issues the last while.....hence my reason for being so quiet. I've been trying to make sense of it all before putting pen to paper....and to be honest not much of it makes any more sense then it did to start with. Issues with my children, the Ex and my future....At this stage I am ready just to throw my hands in the air and walk away and let the chips fall where they may.

I received this via email a few days ago....its not new, in fact I have read it many many times over the last few years but the impact is still the same. I find it a very powerful piece of writing, and can be applied to almost every aspect of ones life.

Let it go T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this!

When people can walk away from you: let them walk.

I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you,

loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you,

staying attached to you.

I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk.

Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

People leave you because they are not joined to you.

And if they are not joined to you,

you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person,

it just means that their part in the story is over.

And you've got to know when people's

part in your story is over so that you

don't keep trying to raise the dead.

You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over.

Let me tell you something.

I've got the gift of good-bye.

It's the tenth spiritual gift,

I believe in good-bye.

It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful,

and I know whatever God means for me to have

He'll give it to me.

And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it.

Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something

that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life,

then you need to LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ..


If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...


If someone has angered you ...


If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge ..


If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction


If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or

talents ..


If you have a bad attitude...


If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...


If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new

level in Him...


If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....


If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help



If you're feeling depressed and stressed ....


If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling

yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to...


Let the past be the past.

Forget the former things.

GOD is doing a new thing for you !!!


Get Right or Get Left . think about it, and then