Wednesday, October 29, 2008

A raging storm

There is a raging thunderstorm on the go right now and its ironic that is symbolises how I feel at this moment.

I feel I have a thunderstorm within. I feel I need a break from myself..know what I mean?

First there is the break up of the best friendship I have ever had in my life.
Then - finding my biological brother (subject of a post of its own - coming soon!)
I never truly feel happy?? Not in my job nor in my marriage.
I look at other couples and find myself feeling envious of the relationship they had.
J and I had that, very long ago. We lost it somewhere along the line and I don't know where to look to find it again.

1 comment:

LittleDorrit said...

You have to be truly happy in yourself before you can be happy with someone else. I have never been able to follow that advice myself but I keep trying. I have no children but I have my inner child to please and raise. Not an easy task. All that I can hope is that I can in some way be true to myself and those around me. When you wake up in the mroning and go to the bathroom to wash up, look in the mirror and smile at yourself. Remember that you are special and unique. Look inside yourself and find your destiny. Only you can do that. Just smile, please, it makes me smile.