Saturday, February 21, 2009

My life almost changed forever today...

I almost lost my baby, Saige.

It seems like an exaggeration but I honestly thought she was either dead or paralysed. And it was all my fault.

We were up at the pool area and Saige was in her pram, restrained. I was taking pics of Lemmie jumping in the pool..but was keeping an eye on Saige to make sure she was still restrained. After getting the shots I wanted I was putting my camera back in its bag..sitting right next to the pram. This was my momentary lapse.

As I looked up my heart stopped..I saw in slow motion how she toppled out of the pram..onto her head, body straight up and flopped onto her back. It was a tiled floor.

I can not even begin to describe what went through my mind! I picked her up and cradled her..she cried..and not even 2 mins later she went gray and appeared to have passed out. I screamed to J (who was playing tennis) that we needed to get to the hospital.

I ran all the way back to my house cradling Saige as still as possible..which was a feat on its own considering how I was shaking. She stayed "asleep" and the longer she did the more my heart raced. I grabbed my car keys and J sat in the back with her..this was the one and only time I haven't put her in her car seat..I didn't have the time.

On the way to the hospital she "woke up" and after 2-3 mins was her normal self again. I was however still beside myself!!
We got to the hospital and had her checked out at the ER...she was fine. Only when I heard that did I burst into tears. I think the adrenalin had stopped me from doing that earlier.

I swear to G*d in those 10-15 mins I thought I had lost my child. Its something I never, ever want to feel again!!

I held her the whole day and now that she is asleep I am checking her every so often to make sure she is still ok.

It was a big wake up call that accidents happen so quickly and your life can be changed forever!


Mommy2JL said...

Oh my gosh!
That's so terrible!!
I'm sorry you had to experience that, I hope your daughter is well!

*big hug*
-nic. @

Laura said...

Oh gosh Tanya! How frightening!!!!

It is an aweful aweful feeling ;(

Jenty said...

OMW that's absolutely frightening! Glad she's ok

Gilz said...

I was sitting reading your post with my hand in front of my mouth, eyes wide - in disbelieve. I can't imagine what you went through. I'm just so very glad Saige is must've been a wreck!!! HUGS

Tanja said...

Oh no, what an awful feeling that must have been :(

So glad she is ok!

Natasha said...

Oh my babes!!!!
How flipping scary!!
she is such a wiggle worm tho, sjoe!

supermom said...

Oh my goodness!!!!! So glad she is okay!!! Accidents to happen so quickly..just looked at what happened at our home last weekend

Corey~living and loving said...

oh my word....I felt your fear...your heartache....just reading this. I am so relieved that she is okay. I pray that I never know that feeling.

Wenchy said...

I'm so sorry. That must have been horrific!!!

I hope you okay (and your girl)