Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Happy Birthday Mommy

Mom today would have been your 70th birthday.
We had such an amazing trip planned for you to Cape Town as you had never been.
you were so excited, not only for Cape Town but for all of us being on holiday as a family. We haven't done that for over 10 years since Fabian left the country.

Instead we are going to the Eastern Transvaal to scatter your ashes. Mom I am so honoured to be able to fulfill your final wish.

Mommy I miss you so much. I miss your giggle. I miss you calling me to moan about how much dad is annoying you (which I FINALLY get btw! lol). I miss your cooking. I miss you helping me with sewing. I miss you when my girls are sick as you are the first one I always used to call. I miss you when I have had trouble at home as you always knew the right things to say..without interfering. I miss just being able to call for no reason. I miss your sense of humour.

Mom I look as this photo of you on your last birthday and my heart pains . It pains for me. It pains for dad. It pains that you won't see my girls grow up. It pains that you will never share another birthday, christmas or New Years. It pains that I will never hear your voice again.

Mom I so hope that you are at peace where you are.

Until we meet again Mom,
Love always!

6 comments:

suew said...

aaaawww T that brought tears to my eyes :(
am thinking of you ((HUGS))

Corey~living and loving said...

thinking of you, Tanya! hugs!

Gillian said...

*huge hugs*

Jenty said...

(((HUGS))

angel said...

Oh Tanya, I see now what you mean about how skinny your dad has got!
Big hugs girl, when one is so close to their mom it takes a long time to stop hurting. I dread the day I won't be able to just call my mom.
Big hugs.

Wenchy said...

Is so hard. My dad would have been 55 yesterday... but died two weeks after his 30th birthday and I had a hard day yesterday all those years later...