Monday, August 31, 2009

My Mommy isnt coming home

I can not even begin to describe how I am feeling right now. I am devastated. Truly.
I am also angry. My daughters were NOT meant to grow up without thier Nana. My mom was supposed to see my girls grow up, to sew their matric dance dresses and to maybe see them have children.
They were NOT meant to grow up looking at pictures of Nana!

The last week has been on of the toughest, longest of my life.

My mom has not improved - at all.
My mom is not responding to any of the antibiotics.
My mom's lungs are not breathing on thier own - today the ventilator was turned up.
My mom's heart can not beat without adrenaline - today the dosage tripled
My mom's kidney's are still not working - she is still on dialysis for 6 hours a day
My mom has jaundice and they suspect liver damage

My mom is not coming home.

My only wish right now is that God takes her soon so she can stop suffering. So so she can stop struggling to live.

I pray for God to give me the strength to get through this and be strong with for my dad.


Jenty said...

Oh Tanya :( I'm so very sorry my friend.
It's really not fair!

Corey~living and loving said...

oh dear. this just broke my heart. :( I'm so very sorry for your hurting heart. I am hoping for peace for you and your family.

Laura said...

I really have no words of comfort :( I am so so sorry about this Tanya!

Thinking of you and your family!

JaneW said...

I am so sorry. (((HUGS)))

Sally said...

Tanya I am so very very sorry. Nothing in the world can make this any easier but just know there are a lot of people who care about you.

totally cooked said...

much love to you and your dad

Natacha said...

Thinking of you!